For the last several months, I've been staring at this sweet face while he sleeps....
...and praying, NOT MY SON! I've watched him laugh and play with his sisters, thanking God for all of my blessings, and in the back of my mind, been praying, PLEASE Lord, not my son! I've had more days than not, that I truly believe, this is all going to boil down to one BIG scare...and it's going to be a scare that leaves us cherishing our miracles even more than we already do...and will leave us forever changed and looking for ways to help families who weren't as fortunate. I've also had days where I think there are just too many signs saying yes, and that our lives are getting ready to be rocked.
This morning at church. God was speaking to me. He brought many mother's to my mind, who have underwent similar helpless feelings---- and one mother in particular, that I know suffered terrible anguish. This mother watched her son be tortured in front of an angry mob, mocked by them, spit on by them, and ultimately watched as they nailed her son's hands and feet to a cross. While I can't even comprehend watching such cruelty to anyone, especially one of my sweet children, I have to imagine she was praying all the while, NOT MY SON! Please spare my son. I think as a mother, she would have traded places with him in a second if she could have. It is her son's death, that actually gives me a never-ending peace and true sense of HOPE in any situation, because her son's story, didn't end there! Three days later he conquered death, and arose from the dead. Because of his sacrifice, when we believe this to be true, our lives don't stop when our earthly lives end either.
Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies; (John 11:25)
He also said:
“I tell you the truth, whoever hears my word and believes him who sent me has eternal life and will not be condemned; he has crossed over from death to life." (John 5:24)
and OF COURSE this one:
"For God so loved the world, that he gave his one and only son, that whoever believes in him, will not perish, but have everlasting life." John 3:16
There are no guarantees for an "easy" life on this Earth...and none of us know what our earthly future holds. However, we do know there is a beautiful gift waiting for us when we leave (and we all will)... if we choose to accept it. This gift is a place where there are no tears, no hurting, no sickness, no sin. A true paradise beyond our imagination that we will live in for eternity. When you have this knowledge and belief, then you ALWAYS have hope. You know there is ALWAYS a happy ending.
I don't know what the outcome of this situation will be, but I do believe it will go one of two ways.
We could very well get an "all clear"---and praise the Lord for his healing hand. There will be a lot of rejoicing, crying, and maybe even some shouting on my part... "Yay! NOT MY SON!!!" (might have to brush up on my "Roger Rabbit" and "Running Man" moves for this celebration)
Or the next turn of events, may not be so happy. We could have to come face to face with our fears, accept the diagnosis, and continue praying for healing. Praying for a long, and good quality life for our son. Praying for a cure for this nasty and terminal disease---all the while fighting with everything we have to make sure Cystic Fibrosis, is NOT going to get MY SON!
Please continue to pray with us! We are so blessed by all of the kind words and encouragement. (and if you are reading this and do not know that your true HAPPY ENDING is ahead, PLEASE let me share more with you! deannaw78@gmail.com)
XOXO
Praying for you and your beautiful family. Put on the armour of God. He holds you close at heart & will continue to bring you the strength, support, & confidence to walk this path in His glory.
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